Where were you when I needed you so bad?
All I had
Was, “well…ok” or “maaaybe”,
Which really meant: “do what you want baby”
So you came over after midnight
and tied me up
And after you finished shooting off…
Asked me to whip-up
a gourmet stroganoff
Silence and compliance was the best I swing
Two letters, one sound would have changed everything!
Nnnn… (beginning of sound) Oooo…(end of sound)
NO! – Get your rough face out of mine
NO! – Take your needs far away from me
No! – I’m juggling too much already
No! – I don’t like that – NO!
No! – I don’t want that – NO!
For me, you didn’t exist
I’d heard others insist
You had to be out there
I just didn’t know where
To find you
It turned out your residence wasn’t in a place
You were growing slowly in my heart-space.
The cry of a dry fear inside me
encased me, numbed, and erased me
Yet when I watered it with tears of pain
when I fed my soul with truth-rain
When I became valuable to me…
Was when I found you!